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Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than t

TabooWhen I first met you...
you revealed your dark ideals.
Yet, others don't understand...
the way I truly understand you.

Your ideals are considered taboo.
You interest yourself in dark things...
like a cult performing dark magic...
under a black and sinister moon.

Your mind is dark and dirty...
to those who do not understand.
Yet you submerge yourself deeper...
into that deep dark taboo.

You search for one to understand you.
Yet, nobody chooses to listen to your taboo.
You're being forced down a long and dark tunnel...
one deeply full of darkness and hatred.

Yet, I am one of the few who understand you.
I understand your deep an

Aura: The Radiance

Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

In The Distance

In The Distance

I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
-
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons

I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror

I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened

I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface

They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing

I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose

I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything

I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
Of

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

Drowning Out The World

Drowning Out The World

I find myself in the sounds
I release my pain in the lyrics
Enveloping peace is found
The vibes calm my spirit

But when silence falls
Reality and time stop
And then my mind floods
With ever-consuming thoughts
-
The walls in my head break down
The serenity within goes silent
And every regret cries out
My memories become violent

I get this sensation
That my soul is too damaged

A dreadful realization
There's nothing left of me to salvage

Music is just a distraction
To blind myself from the carnage

I remain behind the destruction
Where darkness has the advantage

Remnants of rhyme hinder
Calling out to me once more
Ne

Like A FlowerLove is like a flower.
One day, it just gives up
And dies.
Or it is just killed off.
Pulled apart.
Destroyed.
You can do with a flower what you wish,
And love is no different.
Give it to someone,
And they're happy.
Pull it apart,
Figure out if that one person loves you,
But in the end it's gone.
You say you love that person now,
But it ten years,
You won't even remember that pain.
Some may,
But most won't.
Love is like a flower,
You can nurse it and let it grow.
Or you can watch it wither away.
It's your choice.
But in the end,
It won't last for too long.

04 January 2012

(I Gave) My Soul (To You)

(I Gave) My Soul (To You)

I'm inadvertently lost in that smile of yours
And in each and every single word that you say
Sometimes I don't even know who I am anymore
As you lead me on a path that I'll never astray

I will keep following you
Because I want you
-
And every night I can't help but watch you sleep
Down from the countless flickering stars, I'm soaring
And every time I wish I could step into your dream
Through the calming dead of light, I'm falling

I will keep loving you
Because I fell hard for you
-
While you're slumbering, I put my ear to your welcoming chest
And I can't help but lose myself within the echoing sounds

Can My Death?Can my death end hate crimes?
Can my death stop the war in Iraq?
Can my death cure AIDS?
Can my death help the kids in africa?
Can my death end racism?
Can my death stop animal cruelty?
Can my death cure cancer?
Can my death help homeless people?
No, my death won't solve any of this.
But it will save me from this living hell.

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

The Coward (I Am) The Hero (Is Damned)

Every choice that I've made always failed / always failed
Every day I looked death in the eyes, and I smiled / I smiled
I guess I just gave up somewhere in the beginning / in the beginning
Piece by piece, I let myself go, I'm slowly breaking / I'm slowly breaking

Taunting my own useless mortality / preaching to the ashen-winged angel
This lifespan of mine is such treachery / the golden doors are too judgmental

My worst enemy is also my own reflection / a war to be unleashed
My only friends are the tears that keep dripping / though they still leave me

Far too long have I been on my life's edge
L

My Broken Promises

My Broken Promises

I know \ you don't need to remind me anymore
I heard / those heartfelt words many times before

You remember I said I would always be there for you when you needed me
But instead, I just upped and left the both of us, so heartlessly
Knowing very well that you're the most important person, I'm so sorry
Maybe these words of my inner hurt will help you understand clearly

I always thought that my first kiss ever would be with a special someone
But it was taken away from me in a split second, the loss cannot be undone
And I planned to keep my virginity for a little while longer, I wasn't ready yet

A Moment Of Love

A Moment Of Love

This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much

I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does

I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
-
I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark b

A Voice In The Wind

A Voice In The Wind

I can only think of how much I miss you

The pieces of me fall
The time without you stalls

On the inside I know it's wrong
But you're still with me as I carry on
As I try and search for where my heart belongs

I can only remember of how much I loved you

I don't know what I did wrong
I'm so sorry for whatever I've done

Not knowing if I remain unforgiven
I still whisper apologies to try and make a difference
Because I can't take anymore of this lovesick conscience
-
I will always be lost in this storm
As it forever rages on inside of me
Because all I can do now is mourn
While this story becomes a tragedy

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The Road Of Yesterday

by *RainbowizedSky, Mar 26, 2012, 7:50:44 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

The Road Of Yesterday

_{These  closed  eyes  have  wept
Over  all  of  the  pain  I've  kept
Knowing  I  will  always  be  far  from  perfect
I  don't  know  why  I  was  abandoned  or  where  my  hope  went}

I'm tired, I'm just too tired
A moment of peace is what I now desire
Too long have I searched, too long have I suffered

_{I'm so ready to collapse
These feel like my last steps
Let me give up this life that I want to forget}
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_{I'm  finally  out  of  breath
Though  I  still  continue  to  tread
Even  if  I  trip  and  fall  I'll  never  rest
I  will  still  get  up  and  move  toward  my  death}

My feet are sore, my feet are just so sore
A final sunset is what I continue to selfishly mourn
Too long have I waited, too long have I resided in the eye of the storm

_{I'm going to ultimately break
This must be the weakness of my faith
Let me give into this void that I have made}
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_{As  I  reached  the  end  of  my  despair
I  realized  that  life's  fissures  can  be  repaired
It  just  takes  time  to  conquer  all  of  the  nightmares
And  when  I  finally  cried  that  last  tear  I  no  longer  had  any  fear}

Seeing a world that's different makes me feel like I used to be blindfolded
Because that broken past has ended, and a brighter future is what now lies ahead
Even though I've been to hell and back, I will now begin to cherish every single moment

_{I'm ready for my new life that awaits
From now on I know that everything will be okay
Let me finally leave behind the road of yesterday}

The Road Of Yesterdayby *RainbowizedSky

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm going to live my life starting today.
I'm walking away from the road of yesterday.

This poem is written for my poetry project that is titled "The Other Side Of The Sky"
In volume five: Finding Freedom