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Promises Of Today

The sands of time can be unpredictable
But to mold them is impossible
And being let down is typical

I, for one, know what it's like
Having that unrelenting doubt dwell inside
And withstanding all of those tears that aren't dried

With that said
I want to help you, my dear friend
For the hope of happiness is within the reach of your hands
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I need to apologize for not always being there
It's because I have my own slate
But now I'm finally here
I'm sorry I'm late

I've been where you are
I've seen what you've seen
And I was able to break through the dark
But I'll go back for you, just to help you believe

That

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

Ashes Of Tomorrow

Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
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I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel

I'm So Far Away From Hope

I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
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I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew

I'm Almost There

I'm Almost There

Strung out
But sober
Drunk with rage

Broken down
The oppressor
Altered by pain

They say...
They say...
They say the prison is here to save us!

To cage...
To cage...
To cage up the thoughts that are dangerous!
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Weeping for the hollowed
Can't live through tomorrow

My pride I swallowed
And I put on cold smile

My choice is my own
An addiction to being hurt

I want help, but I don't
I wanna change, but I won't

I have too many dark secrets
Flowing in my veins of concrete

This is what they've done to me
The product I like to call "a perfect tragedy."
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Blank stare
Too peaceful
Syncing with blame

A mirror
So pitiful
Soon to

A Spark In The Dark

A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay Stay Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray Pray Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

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But you left me for the last time
I

OntarioWhen I draw your portrait
It's different than it is with others -
As I knew it would be.

I don't get that same blushing sense of shame
In the privacy of my own room
When by the third portrait or so
I find I've inadvertently become acquainted with what I now reflexively draw as familiar:
The symmetrical anomalies – one eye slightly higher than the other,
The imperfect details that perfection is comprised of, yet we never consider.

By the second drawing of a subject I begin to realize that the repeating patterns
Were not idiosyncrasies of expression...
Heat rising as I swallow the hard lump in my throat with the question...

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

Burnt PopcornI cremated a bag of popcorn in my microwave...
and it's honestly not that bad...

but each individual piece tastes like a memory forgotten,
smokey and warm, like campfires in autumn...

if I close my eyes while the soft skin of the piece melts on my tongue,
I can imagine the crinkle of fire and the sparks of fallen ashes...
the miraculous image of twirling smoke against Orion's Belt...

And the harsh, reawakening sounds of pulling the individual black pieces of wood back into the center, raking the powdery ashes into a circle, and realigning every smokey brick...

And even though we never shared a campfire before, I really would like to..

Our Numb Tears

Our Numb Tears

Something deep within me / Is longing for relief
A haunting aura around me / Reminding me of the grief

Scratching at the core of my soul / Hope is swallowed by a black hole
Locked in the center of my heart / All that is left is the traumatized part
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Laugh, smile, blink, and focus. You just need to act as normal as possible.
You cannot let this pain get the best of you. Don't do anything irresponsible.
The damage you do to yourself also effects everyone else, so don't let it become irreversible.
You'r

My Painting of YouI painted you today.
Rolled up the paper,
and carried you in hand.

Gave you to a girl,
with your eyes,
and chestnuts in her hair,
like yours.

Made her smile,
seeing butterflies in a field,
but she gave you back,
when she saw
they are going in the sunset.

I put you on
my dreaming wall,
to be my last glimpse,
of my world
before I remember
you're only a painting.

I'm TryingI'm Trying.

What more do you want from me?

Can't you see I'm trying my hardest?

I'm trying to make something of myself.

I know nothing is promised and I may not be the fastest.

I know my attempts have not resulted in any form of wealth.

What more can I do to prove to you that this is what I want?

I can see you are finding it difficult to get past this.

You think there is more I can do to help myself.

You can see that I'm struggling; I never tried to mask this.

I want you to understand that this is something I must do for myself.

But all that I will ask for you is,

I hope that one day you will believe in me.

Believe in everything

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

You, hereYou

The mountains are white
The grass is green
If now I had you
I would on your shoulder lean

I wish you could see this
It would fill me with delight
If only you were here
To share with me this sight

I will send you a picture
But the same would not be
But I will still stay here
As long as I wait for thee

Threads of Parting

Threads of Parting

Crooked lines and rocky roads align my feet
The cruel threads of parting into the hunger of the night.
Like a wind that caresses my naked flesh under the clinching sunlight
Leaking the beauty of the stars, grasping but unmoving.
Drowning under the currents of a calm clearing, the soul of one leaving behind.
The rain... the only burden so ever sweet.
Whispers of broken mortals leak and disappear
The eternal hope, the pure life in the obscurity...

Where lingers the cruel thread of parting
The burnt of passion and hate unfolds

Under the beauty of immunity, I long your vitality
The object that I fear, the spirit I b

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Flawed Salvation

by *RainbowizedSky, Oct 12, 2012, 6:44:30 AM
Literature / Poetry / Spiritual / Free Verse

Flawed Salvation

/Liquid fire\
Sorrow melts and reforms
As heat seeps through my skin
/Frozen water\
Reflections of my childhood are torn
As frost settles on me once again
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Restless echoes ramble on
Retelling me the stories of yesterday
I remember when my courage was withdrawn
"And you left yourself vulnerable to those crimes of hate."

The liquidsparks flicker
And I wince at that one memory
Then my inner voice suddenly stutters
"I don't know h-how you survived such t-treachery."

Snowflakes descend gracefully
As a cold-burning tear rolls down
I will never know real serenity
"Because all I will ever have is my own."
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/Broken smile\
A shred of hope still lives
To defy the acts of hatred
/Mortal desire\
I will forgive every sin
For this is my own flawed salvation

Flawed Salvationby *RainbowizedSky

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*COLOREDINLOVE Oct 13, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Powerful and poetic...fear of rejection and traumatized for being who you are,..don't give in to the voices telling you that you aren't worth something! Your words will cut them open and they will bleed like you do..all in time..you will be happy...