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In The Distance

I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
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I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons

I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror

I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened

I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface

They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing

I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose

I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything

I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
Of

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

Promises Of Today

Promises Of Today

The sands of time can be unpredictable
But to mold them is impossible
And being let down is typical

I, for one, know what it's like
Having that unrelenting doubt dwell inside
And withstanding all of those tears that aren't dried

With that said
I want to help you, my dear friend
For the hope of happiness is within the reach of your hands
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I need to apologize for not always being there
It's because I have my own slate
But now I'm finally here
I'm sorry I'm late

I've been where you are
I've seen what you've seen
And I was able to break through the dark
But I'll go back for you, just to help you believe

That

Rain Of Darkness

Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
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Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev

Ashes Of Tomorrow

Ashes Of Tomorrow

I can destroy what I create
If I really, and truly wanted to
I can light these feelings ablaze
If I didn't want anymore support from you

I barely stop myself time and time again
I realize there's a sense of cruelty in all of us
It's just that feeling, everything might be in vain
When tempted at breaking down those barriers of trust

To jeopardize all of the triumphs
I want to be the one who is blamed
The fire will reach the sky, and become my guidance
I want to be swallowed by my own inner, selfish flames
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I sit behind the scenes of my friendships
Alone, with a fake smile on my face
That old feeling of lonel

I'm So Far Away From Hope

I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
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I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
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I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

A Moment Of Love

A Moment Of Love

This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much

I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does

I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
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I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark b

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

Undeceased

Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than t

The Road Of Yesterday

The Road Of Yesterday

These  closed  eyes  have  wept
Over  all  of  the  pain  I've  kept
Knowing  I  will  always  be  far  from  perfect
I  don't  know  why  I  was  abandoned  or  where  my  hope  went

I'm tired, I'm just too tired
A moment of peace is what I now desire
Too long have I searched, too long have I suffered

I'm so ready to collapse
These feel

UtopiaUtopia

I raise my head and tilt it towards the skies.
Open my imagination and close my eyes.

Envision a place where I would rather be.
As far away from any judgmental eye that can see.

A place where all my dilemmas become obsolete.
Free from my troubles and the expanding concrete

Confinement that I am forced to exist in.
A place where it doesn't matter if you don't fit in.

A place where nothing but a smile is required.
Where I can think and write to my heart's desire.

A place free from any physical and mental disposition.
Free from the conflicting and persuasive power of religion.

A place where there are adjustable weather condit

A Sleepless Night

A Sleepless Night
(That Will Never Alight)

This same old nightmare that I grimly fear
An image of my life haunted by your shadows

I'm frozen in place, waiting for daylight to soon appear
But I don't know if I'm ready to take on another loveless tomorrow

Why am I the one who suffers when you're not even really here?
I should not have to be the one inflicted by your falsely bestowed sorrow
-
You made and broke every one of those promises
You left even though you knew that you'd be greatly missed

You were not the one saying that you're so sorry
You were not the one who was left crying uncontrollably

You didn't feel your heart being

A Voice In The Wind

A Voice In The Wind

I can only think of how much I miss you

The pieces of me fall
The time without you stalls

On the inside I know it's wrong
But you're still with me as I carry on
As I try and search for where my heart belongs

I can only remember of how much I loved you

I don't know what I did wrong
I'm so sorry for whatever I've done

Not knowing if I remain unforgiven
I still whisper apologies to try and make a difference
Because I can't take anymore of this lovesick conscience
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I will always be lost in this storm
As it forever rages on inside of me
Because all I can do now is mourn
While this story becomes a tragedy

Winc

My Unblind Sins

My Unblind Sins

In the beginning I was emotionally blind
So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind
Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes

I'm the one at fault
For all of the wrong I've done
And I can't live with what my decisions have brought

I'm my own prisoner of these memories
Unforgettable stains of my grief
I'm also the warden, and I can't leave
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Shackled by my mistakes
Wrapped in a chain of lies
I deserve the past I made
For the future won't be mine

Bound by the pain I gave
Locked in a cage of my conscience
I'm serving my time until the end of days
For this is my own form of self-vengean

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Aura: The Radiance

by *RainbowizedSky, Aug 3, 2012, 8:05:08 AM
Literature / Poetry / Spiritual / Free Verse

Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me high, hold me high, hold me high, and give me hope!
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_{Revive the light
Inside the dark
Given a second life
Resurrecting my heart

Cascade of colors
Fade away the gray
Open up a new world
Where shame has no place

Standing up to society's face's
Takes every ounce of courage
Never damaged or discriminated against
Because we're all going through changes}

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I live life like it's mine now / I am not forsaken
I am no longer bound / I feel this sense of freedom

I finally heard an inner acceptance / acknowledged my human flaws
Bestowed a long awaited forgiveness / for another day to freely walk

Envelope in empowerment / the painful past is my protector
Finally feeling found in my reflections / becoming my own savior

I consider this a new beginning
One with very little suffering

A new light has been revealed
To help me fully heal

Live it up, live it up, live it up, and don't have any regrets!
Find the light, find the light, find the light, and indulge in the radiance!

Aura: The Radianceby *RainbowizedSky

Literature / Poetry / Spiritual / Free Verse

Place your light in my life, this is your effect
Place your hope in my hands, so I won't be broken
Put and end to my suffering
Let me experience the radiance
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~AngelKae Aug 4, 2012

Just out of curiosity, have you ever considered writing lyrics for a band (any kind of band)...Your poems are amazing and at first I kept looking up lines of them on Google to find the song they came from, only to realize that you made them up yourself...Amazing job, as always, I love all of your work and hope to maybe hear some of these poems in a song someday

*RainbowizedSky Aug 8, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Sorry for the late response.

Well, I'm not really sure if I'd find out how to submit lyrics....or....try and find a singer who would be interested in considering my work. But, I do think it's a really interesting idea. I would also love to hear my work vocally.

Oh and yeah, I have been experimenting with adding lyrics into my different styles. I'm just trying to fuse stuff together, add some spice to the mix in my poetry, that's why I hope its....working

I love free verse, because I can't stand limitations or rules with the other categories. People, readers are always like "You did it wrong, you wrote it wrong, you missed a syllable" and on and on. So, with free verse, I just love the....unlimited creativity.

I'm so glad you expressed your interest in my work. It means a lot when I read people's comments like these. <3 New work is coming soon!

~AngelKae Aug 9, 2012

Yea, I can't stand having a certain form I need to write in, it's too restricting and really cuts down what I can come up with using my imagination...I totally understand!

Yay! I'm glad, I'll always love reading your work c: Good luck!

~Chocolate-Waterfall Aug 3, 2012 Student Writer

This was wonderful to read through, like a beautiful song played on a lazy summer afternoon. Very lyrical and flowing, like lyrics to a song. I might have to use this as a muse to start writing piano music again...but we'll see. ^^

*RainbowizedSky Aug 7, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

You write piano music? That's awesome! I love listening to piano music while writing for this account. This is one of the most listened-to songs when I write this genre.
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Have you ever heard of Kyle Landry? He's basically the only pianist I listen to. You should check out his work if you haven't already. I love almost every piece he releases.

~Chocolate-Waterfall Aug 8, 2012 Student Writer

I do! I agree, listening to piano music (and for me, sometimes jazz instrumentals as well) while writing poetry or stories is an awesome way to brainstorm and get new ideas

I haven't heard of him but thanks for the suggestion! I'll head over to the amazon downloads section and see what I can find

~leppakakaklifoth Aug 3, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

wonderful job

*RainbowizedSky Aug 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

^_^
Thank you, I'm very happy that you liked it.

~animel0vur Aug 3, 2012

this could be a song. I like.

*RainbowizedSky Aug 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I wonder what kind of song it would be....what do you think?

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